boys.
Posted on April 10, 2009 @ 11:08 pm Filed Under: Boys, Life, Offline, Rants
we broke up. he misses me, wants me back. i made him feel like a king on top of the world, blah, blah.
his best friend (resty) admitted that he still likes me today.
i told him yesterday that i liked him.
i still like them both.
while we were dating, it felt like david was dating ashlee, not me.
i told him that, he said dont worry about her, he contiuned to flirt with her INFRONT of me.
it happened MULTIPLE times, with resty even telling him to smarten up before he lost me.
he said ONCE that he kinda felt weird about resty, so we stopped talking as much and fully stopped doing things he felt weird about even though we enjoyed it. he said ONCE.
i said so many times, yet nothing changed.
i had asked david not to talk to my sister about me before when we were still together
so the day we break up, he adds her to facebook and tonight he told her all about us
she didnt know, cuz i dont think my sister really needs to know all about my life
so he told her EVERYTHING, and now my family wont stop asking questions
so im pissed at him. he wants to get back together. but he doesnt think we will.
i told him if he acted like he cared, maybe we could later.
now resty.. he likes me on and off
there are times he really likes me, and times he doesnt know.
he would hug a girl to make me jealous, and then sometimes not hug her when i was around so i wouldnt get mad.
(something my BF wouldnt even do for me)
he would get jealous if i hugged david infront of him
and wished he could be the one hugging me.
he’d be dissappointed if he walked past the stairs i usually sat at and i wasn’t there
because he wanted to see me, and talk to me
because he liked talking to me and felt like we didnt talk enough at school
he made SO MUCH more effort to show he cared than david ever did.
but he doesnt want to do anything that would hurt david.
even though david always pisses him off, and he doesnt seem to like him as much anymore.
gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. idk what im doing
but i do know that i just wish i didn’t like anyone right now.
so today was awkward.
Posted on April 9, 2009 @ 3:39 pm Filed Under: Uncategorized
Not only did our biology teacher tell us she has a wife, but I had to deal with awkward post-break up conversations. Yeeeeah, David and I broke up last night. I just felt like we were more friends than actually dating, and now his best friend isn’t even hiding his fondess of me. After school David walked by and told me to have a good weekend and it was.. epicly awkward. I was talking to him at lunch but my friend was there so it wasn’t bad, I had told her to keep a conversation going. Then I was talking to him after 4th period and we were complaining about how we didn’t want to go to class and Resty (his best friend, who likes me) overheard and figured we would skip. So he told Taylor (my best friend) in their last period class and all period they thought we were gonna be getting back together and they were both kinda.. mad. Or at least confused. Taylor comes out of the class asking me if we are and im just like.. D: no. Getting back together for a fourth time would just be a little much. I wish that we could just be actual friends and not have it so awkward.
In other totally epic parts of my life, I just got off the phone from a 30 minutes conversation with Resty. I could hear his mom in the background lecturing him about how he shouldnt burp and yawn while on the phone with a girl because it’s rude :p And she raised him better than that. So he told her he loved her and she was just like ‘who are you talking to, me or meredith?’ and she sang the ‘harveys makes your hamburger, a beautiful thing’ song.. I laughed. I’ve seen his mom before and she literally looks no older than 25, but she is apparently 47. I was just like :O when he told me that. I swear if i look that young when I’m almost 50 i’ll be happy.
life is confusing.
Posted on April 7, 2009 @ 11:37 pm Filed Under: Uncategorized
it really is. whether its because of biology homework or boy trouble, its ALWAYS confusing. You never know if you’re doing the right thing or going down the right path or picking the right person or the right friends, or even the right nostril. I honestly wish i could time travel and just see what everything would be like in the future so I’d know if I made the rights choices about anything and everything.
I don’t even know what brought this on, I just know I don’t like being confused.
sooo tired.
Posted on April 4, 2009 @ 12:31 am Filed Under: Uncategorized
I’m about to fall asleep here, but I figured I’d blog while I make myself so tired that my eyes are closing on me. If I don’t do that, it’ll take me hours to fall asleep. I worked tonight, for a whopping six hours. YAY. It was SO boring. I was texting david, but he went to watch a movie. I was texting Gwen, but she was at the movies so she had to go. I was texting Resty (Resty is really Brandon, but I call him Resty.. he’s David’s best friend and one of my really good friends), but he was working out so he was pretty boring. After awhile of one worded replies, he called my cell phone and said he’d amuse me for five minutes and then watch a movie.. it was more than five minutes xD We talked for 20 minutes and then he went to watch I Love You Man.
When I got off the phone I had two texts from David since his movie was over.. i texted him back to tell him I was on the phone and thats why I didn’t answer, so he asked who I was talking to. I told him it was Resty and he was like “wow thats not the answer I was hoping for :(”. He gets worried/paranoid that Resty is ’stealing me from him’ with his charms and the adorable comments he makes. Resty basically knows everything about me since we’ve been good friends for awhile. David and I broke up a few weeks ago (but got back together a few days after the break up) because of Resty basically. He liked me, and I thought I liked him and I got all confused and then yeah.. (he doesnt know that Resty liked me). Anyways, so I told him after that I thought I liked Resty, and he gets worried now so I called him after that to tell him about it. We ended up talking for like 50 minutes until I went home from work 
Then I called him when i got home and talked for another hour. Weird, considering I hate the phone.
The one thing I love about my job is how slack it is :p I work at three different Arenas in town, and when I work at the one i was at tonight I’m by myself so I can basically do whatever when my boss isn’t there, as long as I still serve the customers. So i can do my homework, watch movies with a portable dvd player, listen to music, text, whatever 
So lately I have been on the phone all the time when I’m at work. My boss left work at 7 and I was working all alone and it was completely dead, so once I finished my bio lab i had nothing to do. So talking on the phone gives me something to do, and when a customer comes i just hide the phone under the counter so they don’t think i’m being rude I love the little system I have at work :]
Tomorrow(well, today now actually) is my friend Moe’s birthday. Me, Moe, Taylor, David, Resty and possibly other people are going to the movies around 7 to see Haunting In Conneicit for his birthday. I hate scary movies, and apparently this one is really sketchy. I wanna see it though Not really with Resty AND David, because being near the two of them causes a tad bit of awkwardness. If Resty and I say an inside joke we have, David will freak out and wonder whats going on. Plus, I had a dream like two years ago that I went to the movies with two best friends that i liked, and things in that dream ended badly. Plus, my dreams are known to come true.
It’s creepy actually, I still swear im pyschic.
ell oh ell.
Posted on March 30, 2009 @ 10:17 pm Filed Under: Boys, Friends, Life, Offline, Rants, School
There’s this girl at my school named ashlee. or well, i like to call her ashflea. or cow. you know, whatever suits my mood. anyways.. i don’t like her very much, at ALL. and NO ONE else at out school does. She lives to start drama and cat fights, but i learned tonight that if you stand your ground, she’ll back down. She is.. well lets just say to call her a slut is putting it lightly. She’ll sleep around with any guy when she’s lonely and really doesnt care who she hurts. When I started to date David, she all of a sudden became his best friend. They were always together, he would sometimes ditch me to hang out with her (and lie to me about it too, so that pissed me off before even though it was more him then than it was her), but it slowed down a bit after we broke up (for the second time) and we’re thinking about getting back together. She told him he shouldn’t get back together with me because I was stealing him from all his friends and hated him hanging around with them, which I didn’t at all. I asked her why she said that stuff (we talk a lot, since she’s in my bio class but I hate her) and she said because everyone saw how true it was, but her ‘best friends’ would RANT to me about how annoying she was saying that we shouldn’t get back together and all the crap about me taking him from his friends. So after we got back together, she went back to being all over him. She’d constantly be jumping on him and grabbing his ass, and he would never do anything to stop her.
His best friend, who is also one of my really good friends, asked him why he was letting her and all he said was “Well I never said Meredith couldn’t do the same things.” Which was just.. wow. Anyways, so I talked to David about it and he told AShlee to back off, because he didn’t want to make me mad. He said it in a much meaner way, because he thinks she’s a bitch and only puts up with her so she doesn’t start shit, like she always does. She started it anyways…
As soon as David went offline, she messaged me asking me “why the fuck i didnt tell her myself that i didn’t want david to be friends with her” and just started freaking out to me on msn. I tried to be nice at first, but she just kept going on and on, and then started telling me to ‘grow the fuck up’, start ‘trusting my boyfriend’ and stop being so ‘insecure about myself to the point where i think he’s going after other girls’ or some crap like that. I just told her exactly what i thought, how i trust him just NOT her and how i’m fine with him being friends with her, but what girl really wants another girl all over their boyfriend? She said she’s like that with all guys, which is a LIE. She said she’s not with Brett because his gf Staci would get pissed. Yet I don’t get pissed about David? Apparently she doesn’t with our friend Brandon because she feels awkward around him, but she does with other guys I don’t know. Okay, well don’t do it around my boyfriend thanks. *rolleyes*
The funny part of this is that she acted so tough about it all, telling me to grow up and stop being insecure, but AS SOON as I started giving her a taste of her own medicine, she backed into a little corner and said ‘fine i’ll fucking back off.’ THATS ALL I WANTED. I didn’t want a big drama queen scene, but thats what she made it into. I was so close to telling her that no one liked her, because honestly.. NO ONE DOES. She makes up crap about health problems to make people feel sorry for her and it’s not working. NO ONE BELIEVES YOU ABOUT ANYTHING, BITCH.
I really don’t understand some people.
It’s been awhile ~
Posted on March 30, 2009 @ 5:38 am Filed Under: Online, Random, Updates
Wow. I haven’t had Carouse open in.. years. Well okay, it hasn’t been THAT long but it sure feels like it o.O I almost had it re-opened in November, but then I got caught up in life and all of that and just never got around to completely re-opening it. There is no contect yet, although I hope to find it all on my computer and re add it all soon.
I don’t really have much to say in this blog post as it’s the first one, and it’s 1:36 am on a Sunday Night and I really should be sleeping since I have to be up in a little over five hours for school. I guess that’s all I’ll say for now, and I’ll blog again later tonight after school or tomorrow afternoon.
Have fun looking around the site. All you’ll find right now is the half completed about me page.
Hello world!
Posted on March 30, 2009 @ 1:34 am Filed Under: Uncategorized
Welcome to WordPress. This is your first post. Edit or delete it, then start blogging!
Posted on April 10, 2009 @ 11:08 pm Filed Under: Boys, Life, Offline, Rants
we broke up. he misses me, wants me back. i made him feel like a king on top of the world, blah, blah.
his best friend (resty) admitted that he still likes me today.
i told him yesterday that i liked him.
i still like them both.
while we were dating, it felt like david was dating ashlee, not me.
i told him that, he said dont worry about her, he contiuned to flirt with her INFRONT of me.
it happened MULTIPLE times, with resty even telling him to smarten up before he lost me.
he said ONCE that he kinda felt weird about resty, so we stopped talking as much and fully stopped doing things he felt weird about even though we enjoyed it. he said ONCE.
i said so many times, yet nothing changed.
i had asked david not to talk to my sister about me before when we were still together
so the day we break up, he adds her to facebook and tonight he told her all about us
she didnt know, cuz i dont think my sister really needs to know all about my life
so he told her EVERYTHING, and now my family wont stop asking questions
so im pissed at him. he wants to get back together. but he doesnt think we will.
i told him if he acted like he cared, maybe we could later.
now resty.. he likes me on and off
there are times he really likes me, and times he doesnt know.
he would hug a girl to make me jealous, and then sometimes not hug her when i was around so i wouldnt get mad.
(something my BF wouldnt even do for me)
he would get jealous if i hugged david infront of him
and wished he could be the one hugging me.
he’d be dissappointed if he walked past the stairs i usually sat at and i wasn’t there
because he wanted to see me, and talk to me
because he liked talking to me and felt like we didnt talk enough at school
he made SO MUCH more effort to show he cared than david ever did.
but he doesnt want to do anything that would hurt david.
even though david always pisses him off, and he doesnt seem to like him as much anymore.
gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. idk what im doing
but i do know that i just wish i didn’t like anyone right now.
so today was awkward.
Posted on April 9, 2009 @ 3:39 pm Filed Under: Uncategorized
Not only did our biology teacher tell us she has a wife, but I had to deal with awkward post-break up conversations. Yeeeeah, David and I broke up last night. I just felt like we were more friends than actually dating, and now his best friend isn’t even hiding his fondess of me. After school David walked by and told me to have a good weekend and it was.. epicly awkward. I was talking to him at lunch but my friend was there so it wasn’t bad, I had told her to keep a conversation going. Then I was talking to him after 4th period and we were complaining about how we didn’t want to go to class and Resty (his best friend, who likes me) overheard and figured we would skip. So he told Taylor (my best friend) in their last period class and all period they thought we were gonna be getting back together and they were both kinda.. mad. Or at least confused. Taylor comes out of the class asking me if we are and im just like.. D: no. Getting back together for a fourth time would just be a little much. I wish that we could just be actual friends and not have it so awkward.
In other totally epic parts of my life, I just got off the phone from a 30 minutes conversation with Resty. I could hear his mom in the background lecturing him about how he shouldnt burp and yawn while on the phone with a girl because it’s rude :p And she raised him better than that. So he told her he loved her and she was just like ‘who are you talking to, me or meredith?’ and she sang the ‘harveys makes your hamburger, a beautiful thing’ song.. I laughed. I’ve seen his mom before and she literally looks no older than 25, but she is apparently 47. I was just like :O when he told me that. I swear if i look that young when I’m almost 50 i’ll be happy.
life is confusing.
Posted on April 7, 2009 @ 11:37 pm Filed Under: Uncategorized
it really is. whether its because of biology homework or boy trouble, its ALWAYS confusing. You never know if you’re doing the right thing or going down the right path or picking the right person or the right friends, or even the right nostril. I honestly wish i could time travel and just see what everything would be like in the future so I’d know if I made the rights choices about anything and everything.
I don’t even know what brought this on, I just know I don’t like being confused.
sooo tired.
Posted on April 4, 2009 @ 12:31 am Filed Under: Uncategorized
I’m about to fall asleep here, but I figured I’d blog while I make myself so tired that my eyes are closing on me. If I don’t do that, it’ll take me hours to fall asleep. I worked tonight, for a whopping six hours. YAY. It was SO boring. I was texting david, but he went to watch a movie. I was texting Gwen, but she was at the movies so she had to go. I was texting Resty (Resty is really Brandon, but I call him Resty.. he’s David’s best friend and one of my really good friends), but he was working out so he was pretty boring. After awhile of one worded replies, he called my cell phone and said he’d amuse me for five minutes and then watch a movie.. it was more than five minutes xD We talked for 20 minutes and then he went to watch I Love You Man.
When I got off the phone I had two texts from David since his movie was over.. i texted him back to tell him I was on the phone and thats why I didn’t answer, so he asked who I was talking to. I told him it was Resty and he was like “wow thats not the answer I was hoping for :(”. He gets worried/paranoid that Resty is ’stealing me from him’ with his charms and the adorable comments he makes. Resty basically knows everything about me since we’ve been good friends for awhile. David and I broke up a few weeks ago (but got back together a few days after the break up) because of Resty basically. He liked me, and I thought I liked him and I got all confused and then yeah.. (he doesnt know that Resty liked me). Anyways, so I told him after that I thought I liked Resty, and he gets worried now so I called him after that to tell him about it. We ended up talking for like 50 minutes until I went home from work Then I called him when i got home and talked for another hour. Weird, considering I hate the phone.
The one thing I love about my job is how slack it is :p I work at three different Arenas in town, and when I work at the one i was at tonight I’m by myself so I can basically do whatever when my boss isn’t there, as long as I still serve the customers. So i can do my homework, watch movies with a portable dvd player, listen to music, text, whatever So lately I have been on the phone all the time when I’m at work. My boss left work at 7 and I was working all alone and it was completely dead, so once I finished my bio lab i had nothing to do. So talking on the phone gives me something to do, and when a customer comes i just hide the phone under the counter so they don’t think i’m being rude I love the little system I have at work :]
Tomorrow(well, today now actually) is my friend Moe’s birthday. Me, Moe, Taylor, David, Resty and possibly other people are going to the movies around 7 to see Haunting In Conneicit for his birthday. I hate scary movies, and apparently this one is really sketchy. I wanna see it though Not really with Resty AND David, because being near the two of them causes a tad bit of awkwardness. If Resty and I say an inside joke we have, David will freak out and wonder whats going on. Plus, I had a dream like two years ago that I went to the movies with two best friends that i liked, and things in that dream ended badly. Plus, my dreams are known to come true.
It’s creepy actually, I still swear im pyschic.
ell oh ell.
Posted on March 30, 2009 @ 10:17 pm Filed Under: Boys, Friends, Life, Offline, Rants, School
There’s this girl at my school named ashlee. or well, i like to call her ashflea. or cow. you know, whatever suits my mood. anyways.. i don’t like her very much, at ALL. and NO ONE else at out school does. She lives to start drama and cat fights, but i learned tonight that if you stand your ground, she’ll back down. She is.. well lets just say to call her a slut is putting it lightly. She’ll sleep around with any guy when she’s lonely and really doesnt care who she hurts. When I started to date David, she all of a sudden became his best friend. They were always together, he would sometimes ditch me to hang out with her (and lie to me about it too, so that pissed me off before even though it was more him then than it was her), but it slowed down a bit after we broke up (for the second time) and we’re thinking about getting back together. She told him he shouldn’t get back together with me because I was stealing him from all his friends and hated him hanging around with them, which I didn’t at all. I asked her why she said that stuff (we talk a lot, since she’s in my bio class but I hate her) and she said because everyone saw how true it was, but her ‘best friends’ would RANT to me about how annoying she was saying that we shouldn’t get back together and all the crap about me taking him from his friends. So after we got back together, she went back to being all over him. She’d constantly be jumping on him and grabbing his ass, and he would never do anything to stop her.
His best friend, who is also one of my really good friends, asked him why he was letting her and all he said was “Well I never said Meredith couldn’t do the same things.” Which was just.. wow. Anyways, so I talked to David about it and he told AShlee to back off, because he didn’t want to make me mad. He said it in a much meaner way, because he thinks she’s a bitch and only puts up with her so she doesn’t start shit, like she always does. She started it anyways…
As soon as David went offline, she messaged me asking me “why the fuck i didnt tell her myself that i didn’t want david to be friends with her” and just started freaking out to me on msn. I tried to be nice at first, but she just kept going on and on, and then started telling me to ‘grow the fuck up’, start ‘trusting my boyfriend’ and stop being so ‘insecure about myself to the point where i think he’s going after other girls’ or some crap like that. I just told her exactly what i thought, how i trust him just NOT her and how i’m fine with him being friends with her, but what girl really wants another girl all over their boyfriend? She said she’s like that with all guys, which is a LIE. She said she’s not with Brett because his gf Staci would get pissed. Yet I don’t get pissed about David? Apparently she doesn’t with our friend Brandon because she feels awkward around him, but she does with other guys I don’t know. Okay, well don’t do it around my boyfriend thanks. *rolleyes*
The funny part of this is that she acted so tough about it all, telling me to grow up and stop being insecure, but AS SOON as I started giving her a taste of her own medicine, she backed into a little corner and said ‘fine i’ll fucking back off.’ THATS ALL I WANTED. I didn’t want a big drama queen scene, but thats what she made it into. I was so close to telling her that no one liked her, because honestly.. NO ONE DOES. She makes up crap about health problems to make people feel sorry for her and it’s not working. NO ONE BELIEVES YOU ABOUT ANYTHING, BITCH.
I really don’t understand some people.
It’s been awhile ~
Posted on March 30, 2009 @ 5:38 am Filed Under: Online, Random, Updates
Wow. I haven’t had Carouse open in.. years. Well okay, it hasn’t been THAT long but it sure feels like it o.O I almost had it re-opened in November, but then I got caught up in life and all of that and just never got around to completely re-opening it. There is no contect yet, although I hope to find it all on my computer and re add it all soon.
I don’t really have much to say in this blog post as it’s the first one, and it’s 1:36 am on a Sunday Night and I really should be sleeping since I have to be up in a little over five hours for school. I guess that’s all I’ll say for now, and I’ll blog again later tonight after school or tomorrow afternoon.
Have fun looking around the site. All you’ll find right now is the half completed about me page.
Hello world!
Posted on March 30, 2009 @ 1:34 am Filed Under: Uncategorized
Welcome to WordPress. This is your first post. Edit or delete it, then start blogging!
Posted on April 9, 2009 @ 3:39 pm Filed Under: Uncategorized
Not only did our biology teacher tell us she has a wife, but I had to deal with awkward post-break up conversations. Yeeeeah, David and I broke up last night. I just felt like we were more friends than actually dating, and now his best friend isn’t even hiding his fondess of me. After school David walked by and told me to have a good weekend and it was.. epicly awkward. I was talking to him at lunch but my friend was there so it wasn’t bad, I had told her to keep a conversation going. Then I was talking to him after 4th period and we were complaining about how we didn’t want to go to class and Resty (his best friend, who likes me) overheard and figured we would skip. So he told Taylor (my best friend) in their last period class and all period they thought we were gonna be getting back together and they were both kinda.. mad. Or at least confused. Taylor comes out of the class asking me if we are and im just like.. D: no. Getting back together for a fourth time would just be a little much. I wish that we could just be actual friends and not have it so awkward.
In other totally epic parts of my life, I just got off the phone from a 30 minutes conversation with Resty. I could hear his mom in the background lecturing him about how he shouldnt burp and yawn while on the phone with a girl because it’s rude :p And she raised him better than that. So he told her he loved her and she was just like ‘who are you talking to, me or meredith?’ and she sang the ‘harveys makes your hamburger, a beautiful thing’ song.. I laughed. I’ve seen his mom before and she literally looks no older than 25, but she is apparently 47. I was just like :O when he told me that. I swear if i look that young when I’m almost 50 i’ll be happy.
life is confusing.
Posted on April 7, 2009 @ 11:37 pm Filed Under: Uncategorized
it really is. whether its because of biology homework or boy trouble, its ALWAYS confusing. You never know if you’re doing the right thing or going down the right path or picking the right person or the right friends, or even the right nostril. I honestly wish i could time travel and just see what everything would be like in the future so I’d know if I made the rights choices about anything and everything.
I don’t even know what brought this on, I just know I don’t like being confused.
sooo tired.
Posted on April 4, 2009 @ 12:31 am Filed Under: Uncategorized
I’m about to fall asleep here, but I figured I’d blog while I make myself so tired that my eyes are closing on me. If I don’t do that, it’ll take me hours to fall asleep. I worked tonight, for a whopping six hours. YAY. It was SO boring. I was texting david, but he went to watch a movie. I was texting Gwen, but she was at the movies so she had to go. I was texting Resty (Resty is really Brandon, but I call him Resty.. he’s David’s best friend and one of my really good friends), but he was working out so he was pretty boring. After awhile of one worded replies, he called my cell phone and said he’d amuse me for five minutes and then watch a movie.. it was more than five minutes xD We talked for 20 minutes and then he went to watch I Love You Man.
When I got off the phone I had two texts from David since his movie was over.. i texted him back to tell him I was on the phone and thats why I didn’t answer, so he asked who I was talking to. I told him it was Resty and he was like “wow thats not the answer I was hoping for :(”. He gets worried/paranoid that Resty is ’stealing me from him’ with his charms and the adorable comments he makes. Resty basically knows everything about me since we’ve been good friends for awhile. David and I broke up a few weeks ago (but got back together a few days after the break up) because of Resty basically. He liked me, and I thought I liked him and I got all confused and then yeah.. (he doesnt know that Resty liked me). Anyways, so I told him after that I thought I liked Resty, and he gets worried now so I called him after that to tell him about it. We ended up talking for like 50 minutes until I went home from work Then I called him when i got home and talked for another hour. Weird, considering I hate the phone.
The one thing I love about my job is how slack it is :p I work at three different Arenas in town, and when I work at the one i was at tonight I’m by myself so I can basically do whatever when my boss isn’t there, as long as I still serve the customers. So i can do my homework, watch movies with a portable dvd player, listen to music, text, whatever So lately I have been on the phone all the time when I’m at work. My boss left work at 7 and I was working all alone and it was completely dead, so once I finished my bio lab i had nothing to do. So talking on the phone gives me something to do, and when a customer comes i just hide the phone under the counter so they don’t think i’m being rude I love the little system I have at work :]
Tomorrow(well, today now actually) is my friend Moe’s birthday. Me, Moe, Taylor, David, Resty and possibly other people are going to the movies around 7 to see Haunting In Conneicit for his birthday. I hate scary movies, and apparently this one is really sketchy. I wanna see it though Not really with Resty AND David, because being near the two of them causes a tad bit of awkwardness. If Resty and I say an inside joke we have, David will freak out and wonder whats going on. Plus, I had a dream like two years ago that I went to the movies with two best friends that i liked, and things in that dream ended badly. Plus, my dreams are known to come true.
It’s creepy actually, I still swear im pyschic.
ell oh ell.
Posted on March 30, 2009 @ 10:17 pm Filed Under: Boys, Friends, Life, Offline, Rants, School
There’s this girl at my school named ashlee. or well, i like to call her ashflea. or cow. you know, whatever suits my mood. anyways.. i don’t like her very much, at ALL. and NO ONE else at out school does. She lives to start drama and cat fights, but i learned tonight that if you stand your ground, she’ll back down. She is.. well lets just say to call her a slut is putting it lightly. She’ll sleep around with any guy when she’s lonely and really doesnt care who she hurts. When I started to date David, she all of a sudden became his best friend. They were always together, he would sometimes ditch me to hang out with her (and lie to me about it too, so that pissed me off before even though it was more him then than it was her), but it slowed down a bit after we broke up (for the second time) and we’re thinking about getting back together. She told him he shouldn’t get back together with me because I was stealing him from all his friends and hated him hanging around with them, which I didn’t at all. I asked her why she said that stuff (we talk a lot, since she’s in my bio class but I hate her) and she said because everyone saw how true it was, but her ‘best friends’ would RANT to me about how annoying she was saying that we shouldn’t get back together and all the crap about me taking him from his friends. So after we got back together, she went back to being all over him. She’d constantly be jumping on him and grabbing his ass, and he would never do anything to stop her.
His best friend, who is also one of my really good friends, asked him why he was letting her and all he said was “Well I never said Meredith couldn’t do the same things.” Which was just.. wow. Anyways, so I talked to David about it and he told AShlee to back off, because he didn’t want to make me mad. He said it in a much meaner way, because he thinks she’s a bitch and only puts up with her so she doesn’t start shit, like she always does. She started it anyways…
As soon as David went offline, she messaged me asking me “why the fuck i didnt tell her myself that i didn’t want david to be friends with her” and just started freaking out to me on msn. I tried to be nice at first, but she just kept going on and on, and then started telling me to ‘grow the fuck up’, start ‘trusting my boyfriend’ and stop being so ‘insecure about myself to the point where i think he’s going after other girls’ or some crap like that. I just told her exactly what i thought, how i trust him just NOT her and how i’m fine with him being friends with her, but what girl really wants another girl all over their boyfriend? She said she’s like that with all guys, which is a LIE. She said she’s not with Brett because his gf Staci would get pissed. Yet I don’t get pissed about David? Apparently she doesn’t with our friend Brandon because she feels awkward around him, but she does with other guys I don’t know. Okay, well don’t do it around my boyfriend thanks. *rolleyes*
The funny part of this is that she acted so tough about it all, telling me to grow up and stop being insecure, but AS SOON as I started giving her a taste of her own medicine, she backed into a little corner and said ‘fine i’ll fucking back off.’ THATS ALL I WANTED. I didn’t want a big drama queen scene, but thats what she made it into. I was so close to telling her that no one liked her, because honestly.. NO ONE DOES. She makes up crap about health problems to make people feel sorry for her and it’s not working. NO ONE BELIEVES YOU ABOUT ANYTHING, BITCH.
I really don’t understand some people.
It’s been awhile ~
Posted on March 30, 2009 @ 5:38 am Filed Under: Online, Random, Updates
Wow. I haven’t had Carouse open in.. years. Well okay, it hasn’t been THAT long but it sure feels like it o.O I almost had it re-opened in November, but then I got caught up in life and all of that and just never got around to completely re-opening it. There is no contect yet, although I hope to find it all on my computer and re add it all soon.
I don’t really have much to say in this blog post as it’s the first one, and it’s 1:36 am on a Sunday Night and I really should be sleeping since I have to be up in a little over five hours for school. I guess that’s all I’ll say for now, and I’ll blog again later tonight after school or tomorrow afternoon.
Have fun looking around the site. All you’ll find right now is the half completed about me page.
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Posted on April 7, 2009 @ 11:37 pm Filed Under: Uncategorized
it really is. whether its because of biology homework or boy trouble, its ALWAYS confusing. You never know if you’re doing the right thing or going down the right path or picking the right person or the right friends, or even the right nostril. I honestly wish i could time travel and just see what everything would be like in the future so I’d know if I made the rights choices about anything and everything.
I don’t even know what brought this on, I just know I don’t like being confused.
sooo tired.
Posted on April 4, 2009 @ 12:31 am Filed Under: Uncategorized
I’m about to fall asleep here, but I figured I’d blog while I make myself so tired that my eyes are closing on me. If I don’t do that, it’ll take me hours to fall asleep. I worked tonight, for a whopping six hours. YAY. It was SO boring. I was texting david, but he went to watch a movie. I was texting Gwen, but she was at the movies so she had to go. I was texting Resty (Resty is really Brandon, but I call him Resty.. he’s David’s best friend and one of my really good friends), but he was working out so he was pretty boring. After awhile of one worded replies, he called my cell phone and said he’d amuse me for five minutes and then watch a movie.. it was more than five minutes xD We talked for 20 minutes and then he went to watch I Love You Man.
When I got off the phone I had two texts from David since his movie was over.. i texted him back to tell him I was on the phone and thats why I didn’t answer, so he asked who I was talking to. I told him it was Resty and he was like “wow thats not the answer I was hoping for :(”. He gets worried/paranoid that Resty is ’stealing me from him’ with his charms and the adorable comments he makes. Resty basically knows everything about me since we’ve been good friends for awhile. David and I broke up a few weeks ago (but got back together a few days after the break up) because of Resty basically. He liked me, and I thought I liked him and I got all confused and then yeah.. (he doesnt know that Resty liked me). Anyways, so I told him after that I thought I liked Resty, and he gets worried now so I called him after that to tell him about it. We ended up talking for like 50 minutes until I went home from work Then I called him when i got home and talked for another hour. Weird, considering I hate the phone.
The one thing I love about my job is how slack it is :p I work at three different Arenas in town, and when I work at the one i was at tonight I’m by myself so I can basically do whatever when my boss isn’t there, as long as I still serve the customers. So i can do my homework, watch movies with a portable dvd player, listen to music, text, whatever So lately I have been on the phone all the time when I’m at work. My boss left work at 7 and I was working all alone and it was completely dead, so once I finished my bio lab i had nothing to do. So talking on the phone gives me something to do, and when a customer comes i just hide the phone under the counter so they don’t think i’m being rude I love the little system I have at work :]
Tomorrow(well, today now actually) is my friend Moe’s birthday. Me, Moe, Taylor, David, Resty and possibly other people are going to the movies around 7 to see Haunting In Conneicit for his birthday. I hate scary movies, and apparently this one is really sketchy. I wanna see it though Not really with Resty AND David, because being near the two of them causes a tad bit of awkwardness. If Resty and I say an inside joke we have, David will freak out and wonder whats going on. Plus, I had a dream like two years ago that I went to the movies with two best friends that i liked, and things in that dream ended badly. Plus, my dreams are known to come true.
It’s creepy actually, I still swear im pyschic.
ell oh ell.
Posted on March 30, 2009 @ 10:17 pm Filed Under: Boys, Friends, Life, Offline, Rants, School
There’s this girl at my school named ashlee. or well, i like to call her ashflea. or cow. you know, whatever suits my mood. anyways.. i don’t like her very much, at ALL. and NO ONE else at out school does. She lives to start drama and cat fights, but i learned tonight that if you stand your ground, she’ll back down. She is.. well lets just say to call her a slut is putting it lightly. She’ll sleep around with any guy when she’s lonely and really doesnt care who she hurts. When I started to date David, she all of a sudden became his best friend. They were always together, he would sometimes ditch me to hang out with her (and lie to me about it too, so that pissed me off before even though it was more him then than it was her), but it slowed down a bit after we broke up (for the second time) and we’re thinking about getting back together. She told him he shouldn’t get back together with me because I was stealing him from all his friends and hated him hanging around with them, which I didn’t at all. I asked her why she said that stuff (we talk a lot, since she’s in my bio class but I hate her) and she said because everyone saw how true it was, but her ‘best friends’ would RANT to me about how annoying she was saying that we shouldn’t get back together and all the crap about me taking him from his friends. So after we got back together, she went back to being all over him. She’d constantly be jumping on him and grabbing his ass, and he would never do anything to stop her.
His best friend, who is also one of my really good friends, asked him why he was letting her and all he said was “Well I never said Meredith couldn’t do the same things.” Which was just.. wow. Anyways, so I talked to David about it and he told AShlee to back off, because he didn’t want to make me mad. He said it in a much meaner way, because he thinks she’s a bitch and only puts up with her so she doesn’t start shit, like she always does. She started it anyways…
As soon as David went offline, she messaged me asking me “why the fuck i didnt tell her myself that i didn’t want david to be friends with her” and just started freaking out to me on msn. I tried to be nice at first, but she just kept going on and on, and then started telling me to ‘grow the fuck up’, start ‘trusting my boyfriend’ and stop being so ‘insecure about myself to the point where i think he’s going after other girls’ or some crap like that. I just told her exactly what i thought, how i trust him just NOT her and how i’m fine with him being friends with her, but what girl really wants another girl all over their boyfriend? She said she’s like that with all guys, which is a LIE. She said she’s not with Brett because his gf Staci would get pissed. Yet I don’t get pissed about David? Apparently she doesn’t with our friend Brandon because she feels awkward around him, but she does with other guys I don’t know. Okay, well don’t do it around my boyfriend thanks. *rolleyes*
The funny part of this is that she acted so tough about it all, telling me to grow up and stop being insecure, but AS SOON as I started giving her a taste of her own medicine, she backed into a little corner and said ‘fine i’ll fucking back off.’ THATS ALL I WANTED. I didn’t want a big drama queen scene, but thats what she made it into. I was so close to telling her that no one liked her, because honestly.. NO ONE DOES. She makes up crap about health problems to make people feel sorry for her and it’s not working. NO ONE BELIEVES YOU ABOUT ANYTHING, BITCH.
I really don’t understand some people.
It’s been awhile ~
Posted on March 30, 2009 @ 5:38 am Filed Under: Online, Random, Updates
Wow. I haven’t had Carouse open in.. years. Well okay, it hasn’t been THAT long but it sure feels like it o.O I almost had it re-opened in November, but then I got caught up in life and all of that and just never got around to completely re-opening it. There is no contect yet, although I hope to find it all on my computer and re add it all soon.
I don’t really have much to say in this blog post as it’s the first one, and it’s 1:36 am on a Sunday Night and I really should be sleeping since I have to be up in a little over five hours for school. I guess that’s all I’ll say for now, and I’ll blog again later tonight after school or tomorrow afternoon.
Have fun looking around the site. All you’ll find right now is the half completed about me page.
Hello world!
Posted on March 30, 2009 @ 1:34 am Filed Under: Uncategorized
Welcome to WordPress. This is your first post. Edit or delete it, then start blogging!
Posted on April 4, 2009 @ 12:31 am Filed Under: Uncategorized
I’m about to fall asleep here, but I figured I’d blog while I make myself so tired that my eyes are closing on me. If I don’t do that, it’ll take me hours to fall asleep. I worked tonight, for a whopping six hours. YAY. It was SO boring. I was texting david, but he went to watch a movie. I was texting Gwen, but she was at the movies so she had to go. I was texting Resty (Resty is really Brandon, but I call him Resty.. he’s David’s best friend and one of my really good friends), but he was working out so he was pretty boring. After awhile of one worded replies, he called my cell phone and said he’d amuse me for five minutes and then watch a movie.. it was more than five minutes xD We talked for 20 minutes and then he went to watch I Love You Man.
When I got off the phone I had two texts from David since his movie was over.. i texted him back to tell him I was on the phone and thats why I didn’t answer, so he asked who I was talking to. I told him it was Resty and he was like “wow thats not the answer I was hoping for :(”. He gets worried/paranoid that Resty is ’stealing me from him’ with his charms and the adorable comments he makes. Resty basically knows everything about me since we’ve been good friends for awhile. David and I broke up a few weeks ago (but got back together a few days after the break up) because of Resty basically. He liked me, and I thought I liked him and I got all confused and then yeah.. (he doesnt know that Resty liked me). Anyways, so I told him after that I thought I liked Resty, and he gets worried now so I called him after that to tell him about it. We ended up talking for like 50 minutes until I went home from work Then I called him when i got home and talked for another hour. Weird, considering I hate the phone.
The one thing I love about my job is how slack it is :p I work at three different Arenas in town, and when I work at the one i was at tonight I’m by myself so I can basically do whatever when my boss isn’t there, as long as I still serve the customers. So i can do my homework, watch movies with a portable dvd player, listen to music, text, whatever So lately I have been on the phone all the time when I’m at work. My boss left work at 7 and I was working all alone and it was completely dead, so once I finished my bio lab i had nothing to do. So talking on the phone gives me something to do, and when a customer comes i just hide the phone under the counter so they don’t think i’m being rude I love the little system I have at work :]
Tomorrow(well, today now actually) is my friend Moe’s birthday. Me, Moe, Taylor, David, Resty and possibly other people are going to the movies around 7 to see Haunting In Conneicit for his birthday. I hate scary movies, and apparently this one is really sketchy. I wanna see it though Not really with Resty AND David, because being near the two of them causes a tad bit of awkwardness. If Resty and I say an inside joke we have, David will freak out and wonder whats going on. Plus, I had a dream like two years ago that I went to the movies with two best friends that i liked, and things in that dream ended badly. Plus, my dreams are known to come true.
It’s creepy actually, I still swear im pyschic.
ell oh ell.
Posted on March 30, 2009 @ 10:17 pm Filed Under: Boys, Friends, Life, Offline, Rants, School
There’s this girl at my school named ashlee. or well, i like to call her ashflea. or cow. you know, whatever suits my mood. anyways.. i don’t like her very much, at ALL. and NO ONE else at out school does. She lives to start drama and cat fights, but i learned tonight that if you stand your ground, she’ll back down. She is.. well lets just say to call her a slut is putting it lightly. She’ll sleep around with any guy when she’s lonely and really doesnt care who she hurts. When I started to date David, she all of a sudden became his best friend. They were always together, he would sometimes ditch me to hang out with her (and lie to me about it too, so that pissed me off before even though it was more him then than it was her), but it slowed down a bit after we broke up (for the second time) and we’re thinking about getting back together. She told him he shouldn’t get back together with me because I was stealing him from all his friends and hated him hanging around with them, which I didn’t at all. I asked her why she said that stuff (we talk a lot, since she’s in my bio class but I hate her) and she said because everyone saw how true it was, but her ‘best friends’ would RANT to me about how annoying she was saying that we shouldn’t get back together and all the crap about me taking him from his friends. So after we got back together, she went back to being all over him. She’d constantly be jumping on him and grabbing his ass, and he would never do anything to stop her.
His best friend, who is also one of my really good friends, asked him why he was letting her and all he said was “Well I never said Meredith couldn’t do the same things.” Which was just.. wow. Anyways, so I talked to David about it and he told AShlee to back off, because he didn’t want to make me mad. He said it in a much meaner way, because he thinks she’s a bitch and only puts up with her so she doesn’t start shit, like she always does. She started it anyways…
As soon as David went offline, she messaged me asking me “why the fuck i didnt tell her myself that i didn’t want david to be friends with her” and just started freaking out to me on msn. I tried to be nice at first, but she just kept going on and on, and then started telling me to ‘grow the fuck up’, start ‘trusting my boyfriend’ and stop being so ‘insecure about myself to the point where i think he’s going after other girls’ or some crap like that. I just told her exactly what i thought, how i trust him just NOT her and how i’m fine with him being friends with her, but what girl really wants another girl all over their boyfriend? She said she’s like that with all guys, which is a LIE. She said she’s not with Brett because his gf Staci would get pissed. Yet I don’t get pissed about David? Apparently she doesn’t with our friend Brandon because she feels awkward around him, but she does with other guys I don’t know. Okay, well don’t do it around my boyfriend thanks. *rolleyes*
The funny part of this is that she acted so tough about it all, telling me to grow up and stop being insecure, but AS SOON as I started giving her a taste of her own medicine, she backed into a little corner and said ‘fine i’ll fucking back off.’ THATS ALL I WANTED. I didn’t want a big drama queen scene, but thats what she made it into. I was so close to telling her that no one liked her, because honestly.. NO ONE DOES. She makes up crap about health problems to make people feel sorry for her and it’s not working. NO ONE BELIEVES YOU ABOUT ANYTHING, BITCH.
I really don’t understand some people.
It’s been awhile ~
Posted on March 30, 2009 @ 5:38 am Filed Under: Online, Random, Updates
Wow. I haven’t had Carouse open in.. years. Well okay, it hasn’t been THAT long but it sure feels like it o.O I almost had it re-opened in November, but then I got caught up in life and all of that and just never got around to completely re-opening it. There is no contect yet, although I hope to find it all on my computer and re add it all soon.
I don’t really have much to say in this blog post as it’s the first one, and it’s 1:36 am on a Sunday Night and I really should be sleeping since I have to be up in a little over five hours for school. I guess that’s all I’ll say for now, and I’ll blog again later tonight after school or tomorrow afternoon.
Have fun looking around the site. All you’ll find right now is the half completed about me page.
Hello world!
Posted on March 30, 2009 @ 1:34 am Filed Under: Uncategorized
Welcome to WordPress. This is your first post. Edit or delete it, then start blogging!
Posted on March 30, 2009 @ 10:17 pm Filed Under: Boys, Friends, Life, Offline, Rants, School
There’s this girl at my school named ashlee. or well, i like to call her ashflea. or cow. you know, whatever suits my mood. anyways.. i don’t like her very much, at ALL. and NO ONE else at out school does. She lives to start drama and cat fights, but i learned tonight that if you stand your ground, she’ll back down. She is.. well lets just say to call her a slut is putting it lightly. She’ll sleep around with any guy when she’s lonely and really doesnt care who she hurts. When I started to date David, she all of a sudden became his best friend. They were always together, he would sometimes ditch me to hang out with her (and lie to me about it too, so that pissed me off before even though it was more him then than it was her), but it slowed down a bit after we broke up (for the second time) and we’re thinking about getting back together. She told him he shouldn’t get back together with me because I was stealing him from all his friends and hated him hanging around with them, which I didn’t at all. I asked her why she said that stuff (we talk a lot, since she’s in my bio class but I hate her) and she said because everyone saw how true it was, but her ‘best friends’ would RANT to me about how annoying she was saying that we shouldn’t get back together and all the crap about me taking him from his friends. So after we got back together, she went back to being all over him. She’d constantly be jumping on him and grabbing his ass, and he would never do anything to stop her.
His best friend, who is also one of my really good friends, asked him why he was letting her and all he said was “Well I never said Meredith couldn’t do the same things.” Which was just.. wow. Anyways, so I talked to David about it and he told AShlee to back off, because he didn’t want to make me mad. He said it in a much meaner way, because he thinks she’s a bitch and only puts up with her so she doesn’t start shit, like she always does. She started it anyways…
As soon as David went offline, she messaged me asking me “why the fuck i didnt tell her myself that i didn’t want david to be friends with her” and just started freaking out to me on msn. I tried to be nice at first, but she just kept going on and on, and then started telling me to ‘grow the fuck up’, start ‘trusting my boyfriend’ and stop being so ‘insecure about myself to the point where i think he’s going after other girls’ or some crap like that. I just told her exactly what i thought, how i trust him just NOT her and how i’m fine with him being friends with her, but what girl really wants another girl all over their boyfriend? She said she’s like that with all guys, which is a LIE. She said she’s not with Brett because his gf Staci would get pissed. Yet I don’t get pissed about David? Apparently she doesn’t with our friend Brandon because she feels awkward around him, but she does with other guys I don’t know. Okay, well don’t do it around my boyfriend thanks. *rolleyes*
The funny part of this is that she acted so tough about it all, telling me to grow up and stop being insecure, but AS SOON as I started giving her a taste of her own medicine, she backed into a little corner and said ‘fine i’ll fucking back off.’ THATS ALL I WANTED. I didn’t want a big drama queen scene, but thats what she made it into. I was so close to telling her that no one liked her, because honestly.. NO ONE DOES. She makes up crap about health problems to make people feel sorry for her and it’s not working. NO ONE BELIEVES YOU ABOUT ANYTHING, BITCH.
I really don’t understand some people.
It’s been awhile ~
Posted on March 30, 2009 @ 5:38 am Filed Under: Online, Random, Updates
Wow. I haven’t had Carouse open in.. years. Well okay, it hasn’t been THAT long but it sure feels like it o.O I almost had it re-opened in November, but then I got caught up in life and all of that and just never got around to completely re-opening it. There is no contect yet, although I hope to find it all on my computer and re add it all soon.
I don’t really have much to say in this blog post as it’s the first one, and it’s 1:36 am on a Sunday Night and I really should be sleeping since I have to be up in a little over five hours for school. I guess that’s all I’ll say for now, and I’ll blog again later tonight after school or tomorrow afternoon.
Have fun looking around the site. All you’ll find right now is the half completed about me page.
Hello world!
Posted on March 30, 2009 @ 1:34 am Filed Under: Uncategorized
Welcome to WordPress. This is your first post. Edit or delete it, then start blogging!
Posted on March 30, 2009 @ 5:38 am Filed Under: Online, Random, Updates
Wow. I haven’t had Carouse open in.. years. Well okay, it hasn’t been THAT long but it sure feels like it o.O I almost had it re-opened in November, but then I got caught up in life and all of that and just never got around to completely re-opening it. There is no contect yet, although I hope to find it all on my computer and re add it all soon.
I don’t really have much to say in this blog post as it’s the first one, and it’s 1:36 am on a Sunday Night and I really should be sleeping since I have to be up in a little over five hours for school. I guess that’s all I’ll say for now, and I’ll blog again later tonight after school or tomorrow afternoon.
Have fun looking around the site. All you’ll find right now is the half completed about me page.
Hello world!
Posted on March 30, 2009 @ 1:34 am Filed Under: Uncategorized
Welcome to WordPress. This is your first post. Edit or delete it, then start blogging!
Posted on March 30, 2009 @ 1:34 am Filed Under: Uncategorized
Welcome to WordPress. This is your first post. Edit or delete it, then start blogging!